Mark 4:35-41 contains a passage I’m pretty familiar with,
recently as I was reading through, the thought struck me how this is a typical
Sunday school story, one often repeated to kids in church. Every so often I
come across passages like this and have to intentionally slow down, and really
ask God to show me something to chew on.
This time He directed my thoughts to how the disciples really
questioned God. They question whether he cares about their well-being, and once
he actually calms the waves and the wind, they question “Who is this? Even the
win and the waves obey him!”
This led me to ask myself the question how often do I
question God? Surely not often I tell myself, I trust God completely I think to
myself.
But the more I pray, the more I realize I question God, just
not in obvious ways. My questioning, my doubt in him comes in subtle ways such
as acting without seeking his direction, assuming I know best.
Questioning God seems preposterous, like the disciples
wondering if Jesus even cared whether they drowned or not. The answer seems
obvious, and yet we doubt God anyway.
When I choose not to be obedient to his word, to not give a
tithe, to not pray his will, or ask his permission, I question his sovereignty
and declare I know better.
