If you were the last seed

Yesterday I started back with some quality times with God, in His presence, in His word. I began by reading John 12 to look ahead at what Overflow will cover next semester. As I was reading, this verse jumped out that I had never noticed before

"I tell you the truth, unless a kernal of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains only a single seed. But if it dies, it produces many seeds. The man who loves his life will lose it, while the man who hates his life in this world, will keep it for eternal life." John 12:24-25

Jesus isn't talking about crops here, or presenting what seems on the surface to be a hard truth.

Read verse 25, then read 24 again.

Go ahead and read. I want you to hopefully draw the same conclusion, before i tell you what i think.

If we love who we are now, the things we have, then we're only looking an inch in front of our nose. Who we are now is still only a work in progress (though when Christ looks at us, He sees the finished product like any artist would). We cannot settle for this life. We must let go of what we want in this life, letting them take a back seat, until we seek God's kingdom (what is to come) first.

Think of it this way, if the kernal stays a kernal, he is just one. If he gives of himself, and looks to the future (what is to come) he becomes many seeds for what lies ahead.

How are you helping those following just a few pages behind? Are you taking what has been invested in you, and in turn investing it into someone else?

If I were the last seed of watermelon, I would hope I would ensure that generations to come could taste of my fruit. Shouldn't others be blessed by the love God has shown us?

Finally have my bearing...and peace

I've been really distracted lately. Distracted to the point that, it was hard for me to focus on much of anything else. Some of you I told why, others I was probably too distracted to tell you.

Been distracted, stressed, and just plain restless trying to figure out some of the mission trip opportunities God had layed in front of me.

After many prayers, some wrestling with my spirit, I feel that this upcoming trip to Tunisia is not the right time for me. This feeling isn't just from my parents not being ready for me to take such a step, but also I see where God can use me in other areas meanwhile.

I came to this understanding last night. I prayed non stop through the previous few days. The reason for so much indecision was because I do feel that God has layed the Muslim people on my heart and Tunisia. However, as Anna Booth put into words a truth I began to understand last night "A servant must be content to serve wherever he/she is called."

Instead of Tunisia, I will be going on the inner city mission trip over spring break to Philadelphia. I also am looking strongly at returning to Dearborn in May, along with Glen Titus and Jessica Martin from NC.


Now that that is settled, I can refocus on continuing to pursue God's love, and to show it.

Father, thank you, thank you, thank you for peace that is in fact beyond all understanding. You are indeed the beautiful one I love!